The unpredictable turtle

Do you know what I hate? Being umployed. And disguising the shame with phrases like "Oh, I'm a freelancer" or "I teach part time". I see tons of people blaming their recent financial crisis to The Economy but I think it's really the desire for a little excitement in life (plus a lack of motivation) that put me here: Sitting at a cafe, ordering one cappucino after another (sidenote: what IS the difference between cappucino, cafe latte and latte macchiato?!) pretending to look important while youtubing the most viewed clip or bombarding my best friend's email (Sorry hun!) with questions like "Sooooooooo anything new since.... an hour ago?" For awhile, I did have it good. The high paying career (as an expat in Germany), weekend getaways to Paris, Prague or Barcelona, latest Louis to go along with the black Hugo Boss dress. You know, like something out of Devil Ate My Prada (or whatever that movie was called with Anne Hathaway. Point being, I was too damn career focused and important to even see it). I was Miranda minus the white hair and the wrinkles. And honestly, I wasn't too unhappy. People like to tell you these feel good stories by saying happiness is worth more than money but come on. We live in an era where BUYING THINGS have the ability to give you a dose of endorphin to last a couple of hours. Rocking an outfit from Massimo Dutti was a new way to relieve stress (move aside binge eating, new sheriff has come to down!) Anyways, 3 years of leading that sort of life did take its toll. While both my bank account and my closet were getting nice and fat, I began to lose it. I could pretty much sum up my life in a single (run-on) sentence:

Dori Turtle climbs the corporate ladder, settles down and grows old.

As much as I tried, I couln't squeeze in fun&exciting adjectives to describe my present or the future. So I did what no one else dared to do in the middle of a recession. I quit my job for no good reason (bless my manager's heart for giving me a day off to reconsider. I spent that day acquiring boxes and gambling my savings away) and jumped onto the unemployment train (no first classes here!). All in search for those fun&exciting adjectives (verbs, nouns, pronouns, I'll take whatever I can get) to add onto my life:

The adventure seeking Dori Turtle courageously abandons her career in hopes to .... in hopes to... (I guess I can work on this part later on. But you get my drift)

5 months later (at the present time), I can't say I don't completely regret the decision I have made. I'd rather tell you the God's honest truth rather than to give this post a happy ending. I still think money can buy a form of happiness and I am scared shitless (can I curse on blogs?) because I don't know how to keep myself smiling after my savings run out. But this I can tell you for sure. I did find one adjective: Unpredictable. (Wow I think I just had a slight orgasm typing that) And I am determined to make the rest of my life an adventure.

By the way, did I mention I am writing this from a cafe.... in China?
(wink)
Like I said, the unpredictable Dori Turtle.
To be continued.